hmmz..today went out early in the morning with xue li..erm..hahaz.she very cute de..wear the cute cute socks..hehez..=) erm..we wnet kbox..yah..the two of us only..hahaz..then the room very small..not use to it.. hahaz..but we had fun..kept singing and laughing..actually only laugh a bit lahz..hahaz..xue li's singing very nice one lehz..hahaz..erm..the gerlad came halfway and paid money..but he sang only half a song..so wasted lor..then he left for jon lim house while we went to buy michelle persent..hahaz.. bought something from precious thought...then we went walk walk around..xue li buying earstuds..so i help her choose..in the end..she bought two..hahaz...one is a shirt and pants one..the other is flower one..hahaz..then as we walked we saw more..hehez.. erm..so went walked around tm and century square..then went buy sushi to eat..hmmz after that went walk around also..then at east-link mall saw bags...attracted by the cartoon..so we each bought one..hahaz..i bought black then xue li bought pink..heehz..after that..went home le..went home and watched tv until now lor..hahaz..kekez.. byebyez...
haiz..it had happened in reality..will it happen in life? wat if it really happened??? i told myself to give up..but why am i thinking about it again and again?? every night..every moment..every minute.. i can't bear to give up cause i still hold some hope...but u don't give me the hope i expect... i am contented..but i wanted more..i am greedy... i just feel that i am contradicting... i am really sinking deeper and deeper...how? will i be pulled up? will i? i hoped to..but i don't think so... i am just being pulled back further and further to the starting point as day goes by.. with so many things happening around... haiz..
